tak boleh senyumlah..rase macam disuntik botox je..

only a few people knew how stressfull i am nowadays.

hati sangat berat macam ada seguni beras*sebiji beras ibarat setitik peluh petani..eh*
nak kata susah hati pasal propa, ade la, period tu da lama lepas.
pasal kekaseh hati yang selalu-buat-tak-faham-ape-aku-nak
memang la
pasal famili pun terlalu komplikated sampai nak buat status dekat friendster pun boleh.
buat masa sekarang nih,dnie nak setelkan sume masalah.
puas menarik nafas fu-fu tapi beban seguni beras tu maseh lagi terasa.

semalam dnie bersembang sembang lah dengan kakak ku yang dirindui
on the phone lah kan.
tetibe kat satu statement tu made me realize something
i refuse to go home
which is rare because somehow i always find a time for me to go home and be at home.
but now,i'm at hostel.
*darn*

part of the reason is that whenever i go home i tend to fall sick
*statement betul tak tipu lansung dan diperakui oleh mummy*
tapi dnie tau sebetulnya dnie tak mau balik sebab tak mau berhadapan dengan masalah masalah orang tua.
" i'm a ** years and have to think of the 40's and 50's problem, i got so many other things to do"
and all my sister can say..
"i don't now you were so stressed"
ngeeeee.
there's so many things you haven't know about deeper me, sister!
i wish i could let it all out in front of you guys so that you guys can understand that not all things are as comlicated as you think.
next week adik balik oke.
*BIggrin*

i'll be just fine sister..
adik besar dah kan.